Redemption!

Another day is up and about

And the loneliness persists.

It is as strong as if I were alone.

When life becomes a constant mess,

And the only words that come to mind are

‘Get out of here!’

Depression becomes the order of the day.

Misery is comfortable

And logics take a strong mind.

When mistakes rule the world

And apologies became a daily routine,

When the mind loses its sanity

And reasons give way to cribbing.

When we become a burden on the people who love us

And we lose faith on ourselves,

That’s when the clock strikes twelve

And the truth dawns in…

Change!

Fight!

Become yourself!

The mistakes we made in the past

We cannot undo,

The time we lost,

We cannot bring back.

The things we broke,

We cannot fix them again.

But the mess we made,

We can clean it up again.

We cannot bring back the beginning

But we can give it a new beginning.

So let us redeem ourselves

Let us be the person we wanted to be.

Let us the walk the path we were meant to walk

And let us stop being afraid of our steps!

If life already is a mess,

The worst we could do

Is mess it up some more.

But if we succeed,

We could bring back the sense of self we had lost.

So let’s keep fighting!

If we lose,

We will be back to where we began.

If we win,

Ours will be the world,

And ours will be the life.

So stop fearing,

Get your gear

And get, set, go…

Because O’ faithless wanderer,

Life is too short to lose yourself

And too long if you be someone else.

So make your own way,

Set your own goals,

And walk away to the mountains that await.

For in this world,

The golden letters will fade,

But as long as you walk your way,

You shall always remain…

Why the Loneliness…

This is one of those moments

When life seems as confusing and unmanageable

As a silent sea beneath the starry sky.

There is no tempest

Yet there is no tide,

There is no light

Yet there are the stars.

There is purpose

Yet there is the confusion masking the will to work.

There is focus

Yet there is no energy to learn.

When solitary time starts feeling like isolation,

When alone stops being different from lonely,

When independence starts suffocating,

Clinginess takes over love.

Where is the ‘I’ll do it myself’ attitude,

Where is the ‘I like being with myself’ feeling?

Why being alone in the room

Feels like abandonment

Rather than optimum time to work?

Why the half hour break

When everyone walks their way

Reduces me to tears than inspire me to take the books out?

Why motivation is required to work,

What is the need for a pep talk

Every time I am left alone?

Why does it take every last bit of energy

To not feel helpless when alone?

This was not me,

This is not what I had wanted to be!

Then why the dependence

Why the need for company than just want?

Why do I need distractions

To keep my thoughts in check when work should be enough?

Where does this lead me

If it does lead me anywhere?

Where is the road I meant to take?

Where is the life I meant to live?

Why am I becoming a burden on those who love me?

Why am I becoming a liability than the pillar of strength?

Where is the maturity now?

Where did the independence of thought get lost?

Where is the sense of balance?

Where is the ‘I’…