GET OUT!

This is one of  those moments
when a thousand thoughts
fluttering in your head 
and every muscle in your body
tells you just one thing -

GET OUT!

One of those moments 
when your hand
hovers over a blank sheet of paper 
stopped
not by lack of ideas
but by the fear of them.

One of those moments 
when you wish with all your hearts
for a non-dramatic,
non-movie-ish story,
with a fear of what that might really mean.

When every cell in your brain,
every ligament and every tendon of your body
gets tensed
for the fear of the future,
a fear of uncertainty
or maybe just
the fear of certainty.

When your eyes hold back the tears
and lips restrain the quivers
when your face pretends
to not be numb.

It is ironic
that even the Sun only appears 
when the fog starts thinning
for life is grey,
no victories but battles
directionless with purpose
to-do's without a hope for vigor
a rush to work 
not because of dedication
but to escape the painful thoughts 
just waiting in the vicinity.

And still the one thought -
Get out!
With the simple truth - 
You can't...