ALIVE BUT DEAD

A few leaves fell from the nearby tree
as he finally kissed me on forehead
then with a sound lower than the rustle of leaves
he left to never to come back again.

I stood there rooted to the spot
tears trickling down my eyes
mourning my life
that had just walked away.

Days felt like years
when he was not there
to embrace me in his arms
and cling me to his chest.

Loneliness that had felt like solitude once
now felt like a depression hard to overcome.
tears that I had always kept in control
now leaked out on their own accord.

As months passed by
numbness took over pain
until I was
as lifeless as a corpse.

No pain , no fear, only numbness
was all I could feel
as I sat alone
staring at the life that would never be filled again.

Memories faded as the time passed by
but even though my heart beat
I could not feel my blood pulsing through my veins.

Somehow, I knew I had to survive
for others who had suffered no pain
and for those who had suffered no loss.

I was alive on outside
but dead from inside.
but I knew one thing for sure
that I had to survive
to let the others survive!