FRIENDLESS!

A group of people
gathered in a circle
seemed familiar enough
for me to go and check.

As I moved closer,
I felt I was getting smaller,
tiny with every step I took.

Soon the group of students
seemed like a bunch of giants
all set to keep me out.

They were all there-
my friends,
or atleast that's what
I had thought they were.

They seemed alien,
as if in another world
close enough to touch
but still far away.

The sense of protection
I had always felt in their presence
was suddenly gone,
like Sun on a cloudy day.

The wave of depression
swept over me
pulling me under
and I felt my knees
hit the solid ground.

Was I so alone
in the whole world?
Was I so unacceptable
like a rotten apple?

Not part of any group
not the cloud of any sky,
not the friend of any worthy
and not the human of this world.

Screaming, I woke up
from the torturing nightmare.

BUT WAS IT REALLY A DREAM?

Maybe. Maybe not.
Somewhere deep down
I knew that I could
never be a part of the group
that intimidated my very existence.

Somewhere deep down
I knew I was alone,
friendless and lonely
without anyone to protect me.

Depression overtook me
and I screamed again
feeling that for the first time in a long time
I did not know what to expect the next day!